Sebagai seorang yang pernah menjalani sesi konseling, sungguh aku mengerti bahwa proses penyembuhan gangguan mental tidak semudah yang dibayangkan. Pasti ada naik-turunnya. Pasti ada masa-masa ingin menyerah. Dan, proses tiap orang tidaklah sama. Ada yang bisa menyelesaikan masalahnya dengan mudah dan cepat, ada yang membutuhkan waktu yang lebih lama. You are fine now, just the way you are. You might say silly things when drunk, there may be side effects from the pills, but you’re fine. If the latter happens, all you have to do is call me up and swear at me.’ But if she's so hopeless, why can she always summon a desire for her favourite street food, the hot, spicy rice cake, tteokbokki? Is this just what life is like? it's short and easy to inhale, and in translation the writing style is very straightforward and simplistic. i underlined a few helpful nuggets of wisdom, but my principal reaction is a neutral "huh."

It's not a book for me, but I love this journey for you, Baek Se-hee (as I failingly attempt to flip my hair like Alexis from Schitt’s Creek). Quit your job to turn your emotional shit into gold? I 'stan'. At least she seems very genuine about it all. I'm just not the right reader for the book, which is a shame, but I can imagine someone else actually loving it a whole lot more than I did. I was expecting some dark beast of a book. This is a bit mild for me, but that doesn’t mean the writing doesn’t matter. It does very much; it just doesn’t resonate with me. I’m just not the right reader for this, unfortunately. And unfortunately, I vibe with Sarah Kane’s 4.48 Psychosis more, which really, just tells you more about me than Baek's book. it wasn't hard at all to realize that maybe not all therapy sessions in this book were successful, i would have liked some problems to be discussed more, not just followed by other questions, but i enjoyed learning about the author's family, her way of thinking and her view of relationships with other people I was just curious why this book is known for its 'self-love' content even though the title has the name of food. Lol.In this second book. The author tells a process of accepting herself as she is and how to love herself more. The acceptance of herself and the fact that everything needs a process is told in her second book. Jika dibandingkan, sejujurnya aku lebih suka cover buku yang pertama. Begitu pun dengan penataan isi buku dan kualitas kertasnya, aku juga lebih suka yang pertama meskipun memang ada tulisan dengan latar berwarna magenta yang menyakitkan mata sementara di buku ini tidak ada lagi. Alas, the book has a major problem: It is unbelievably boring. The educational impulse is overwhelming, protagonist Baek remains a chiffre, and the (highly professional) dynamic between her and her therapist doesn't allow for enough immersion. Also, you would expect more complexity from a novel that focuses on the guidance of a mental health professional - but then again, I suppose the author wanted to connect to younger people who are afraid to reach out for help, and for this demographic, this highly accessible approach might be justified.

Bagaimana dengan isinya? Pada buku ke dua ini, dialog antar penulis dan psikiaternya lebih jelas. Proses penyembuhannya pun terlihat lebih signifikan, meski sejujurnya keadaan penulis di buku kedua ini makin parah (Kenapa? Baca sendiri deh ya), namun perlahan dengan adanya proses penerimaan diri, penulis berangsur pulih meski depresi belum sepenuhnya sembuh. Yup!!! It turns out that the content of this book is more of a note or journal from the author after finishing a consultation with a psychiatrist. An essay that he wrote based on his own life story. How he - the author - struggles with his illness. Buatku pribadi, buku kedua dari Baek Se-hee ini terasa lebih "intim" dibandingkan buku sebelumnya. Masih berisi percakapannya dengan sang psikiater, juga masalah penulis dengan distimia yang dia derita.Although I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokpokki is actually a compilation of written dialogues between the author and her psychiatrist, I was able to immerse myself into the conversation, to the point that it felt very intimate, as if I was in her situation all along. I was never clinically diagnosed with depression or any other mental illness, but I went through my own dark moments and I could relate to most of the things that Baek Se-hee went through. The confusion in Baek Se-hee's dialogues mirror my own, and the psychiatrist's words sent me a blanket of comfort that I absolutely needed. The author claims to have learned several things - she understood that she can let herself be, that she can let herself feel whatever she feels, that she interprets events in her life depending on her mood. However, I would expect her to learn this and start processing the positive change within the first month of therapy, not after ten years. The fact that her psychiatrist didn’t give her any homework, didn’t explain what they are going to do in their therapy sessions, left me speechless. After three months of therapy the author states “Everything is a mess” and feels more out of control than before she started the therapy, which I fully understand, considering the low quality of sessions she had. Even if she sometimes felt the psychiatrist understands her, she never got any constructive guidance on how to solve her problems. What she received was several pieces of advice on how to avoid dealing with the problem, which seemed to be random ideas of her psychiatrist, not a product of their experience, qualifications and knowledge. For example, Baek complained about drinking too much but instead of investigating why she does that and what kind of coping mechanism her drinking is, her therapist just suggested avoiding friends with whom she goes drinking. This may be a common way of sweeping problems under the rug in Korean culture but it is totally inappropriate from the therapy’s perspective as it does not solve the root cause of the issue. I could name many more similar tips the author received. I learned from the book that the author spent ten years in therapy and didn’t end up much wiser. No wonder. The psychiatrist prescribed her a ton of medications without explaining the reasons for doing so, side effects, expected results and even ways of seeing when the medication starts working (!): “I’m going to change your medication a bit. The antidepressants will lift you from the ground a little more, and I’ll also include some mood stabilisers”. I have heard of this level of incompetence from some of my Asian students and I don’t need to mention how extremely frustrated it makes me. Denying a patient knowledge about their health and treatment is a gross misconduct. Buku nonfiksi ini berisi rekapan percakapan antara si penulis–yang menderita Distimia–dengan psikiaternya selama prosesnya untuk bisa lebih menyayangi dirinya sendiri. Terjemahannya bagus, isinya menarik, tapi memang sebaiknya buku ini secara perlahan dan tidak dibaca dalam sekali duduk. Jadi pastikan ada rehat di sela-sela membaca. At once personal and universal, this book is about finding a path to awareness, understanding, and wisdom.

Mengutip dari kalimat dr. Jiemi dalam kata pengantar, "Terimalah diri sendiri dalam ketidaksempurnaan, karena tidak ada juga manusia yang sempurna. Izinkan orang lain memiliki persepsinya terhadapmu, karena kita tidak bisa mengubah persepsi orang lain. Namun izinkan dirimu memiliki persepsi yang baik juga terhadap dirimu sendiri, jangan karena orang lain merisak diri kita lantas kita ikutan membully diri sendiri".Di buku kedua ini, Baek Se Hee menceritakan apa yang ia rasakan saat ia bekerja di kantornya dan alasannya ingin berhenti saja dari perusahaan itu; ia menceritakan kegelisahannya terhadap panilaian orang-orang di sekitarnya, baik orang yang ia kenal ataupun tidak; ia menceritakan bahwa ia benci melihat tubuhnya sendiri dan betapa ia masih terluka akibat perkataan dari teman-temannya dulu tentang bentuk tubuhnya. Baek Se Hee menceritakan semuanya dengan gamblang, termasuk saat ia terus-terusan berpikir untuk mengakhiri hidupnya. Baek Se Hee pernah mencoba untuk melompat dari atap villa saat ia berlibur bersama dengan kekasihnya di Yeonnam-dong. Selain itu, ia pun terus-terusan melukai dirinya sendiri dan terus-terusan menangis sampai akhirnya psikiaternya menyarankannya untuk melakukan rawat inap. Bagian ini mungkin akan terasa mengganggu untuk beberapa orang, termasuk aku. I just finished the first book a couple days ago and I really love this self development book because... It's not give me a bright ending. It shows me that if you want to heal yourself, you need a time. It's okay at least you have a progress. Also one important thing is sometimes when you are on the way on healing, you can feeling bad again. But that's okay, that's also a progress. Don't give up on your healing session!. she got offended when a friend didn't seem to enjoy a book she recommended, and sent a scathing message to said friend, calling her "arrogant and exhausting"

Having personally suffered from mental health issues myself, I was hopeful for this book. However, I found the writing disappointing, and the author immature, infuriating and insufferable. Some examples: That’s enough for me - why did I torture myself by comparing myself to someone else? If twenty-year-old me met me today, she would cry with joy. And that’s enough for me." If you're curious about what my coworkers think about on a daily basis with their weak ass sugary mix coffee, here it is.

P.S. I was wondering why this book was so hyped until I did some Nancy Drewing and realized that someone from BTS apparently endorsed this book so I guess it's true what they say: The boy bands will inherit the earth.