She meets Emma Anderson, Lush guitarist, at school, where they bond over bands and start their own fanzine. We learn how Berenyi’s parents split when she was four, after which her mother, Yasuko, a Japanese actor, began a relationship with the TV and film director Ray Austin. While denying her interest in music biographies, Berenyi names a few that popped up in her mind during the long pandemic days of writing.

No longer the centre of Dad’s attention, I become bored and begin yawning, and he has the perfect excuse to usher his catch home. It is written with an honest self awareness and reflections exploring why she felt a certain way or craved certain aspects of her life, as well as an insight into how women in the music industry were treated in the 90s. Berenyi’s memoir charts the life of her band, from a climate of mutual assistance between very different acts to alienating commercialism.Our team is made up of book lovers who are dedicated to sourcing and providing the best books for kids. Miki also explores her complicated relationship with Emma – one that has fluctuated between camaraderie and rivalry over the years – and addresses the most devastating tragedy of all: the suicide of her best friend and soulmate, Lush drummer Chris Acland. Trading Address (Warehouse) Unit E, Vulcan Business Complex, Vulcan Road, Leicester, Leicestershire, LE5 3EB.

We work closely with publishers and authors to ensure that we offer the best books on the market for your child. She’s also entirely unflinching in her stories of sexual abuse that she suffered as a child, both at the hands of her father’s friends and her paternal grandmother.By using the Web site, you confirm that you have read, understood, and agreed to be bound by the Terms and Conditions. It effectively ends after Lush formally dissolves in early 1998 and we only get few a few paragraphs describing Berenyi's subsequent life: her move into being a sub-editor in the publishing industry, an ill-fated Lush reunion in 2015-16, the births of her two children and her more recent forming of the excellent band Piroshka (who have produced two very good albums to date). I can’t recommend Fingers Crossed highly enough, even if you’ve never heard of Miki Berenyi and have no interest in Lush. Lush were a great 90s band and the records they created have stood the test of time and still sound as good today as they ever had. But frequent relocation, parental neglect and the dark presence of her abusive grandmother resulted in crippling shyness, mental-health issues and a vulnerability to exploitation.

You might naively assume that having a parent in the entertainment industry comes with a degree of financial security, but the author makes it clear that this is far from being the case. Sure, there is an unflinching examination of the excess that came with music industry success in the 1990s in there, but that’s restricted to the latter half of the book. Neuware - The extraordinary and searingly honest personal story of musician Miki Berenyi, revealing the highs and lows of navigating the madness of the '90s music industry.

The memoir also explores Miki's complex relationship with Emma - one that has fluctuated between camaraderie and rivalry over the years - and addresses the most devastating tragedy of all: the suicide of her soulmate, Lush drummer Chris Acland.

In her father’s case, this was essentially writing and womanizing while her mother focused on her career as an actress and model. Registered office address: Unit 34 Vulcan House Business Centre, Vulcan Road, Leicester, Leicestershire, LE5 3EF. From the bohemian lifestyle of her father’s social circle to the privileged glamour of her mother’s acting career, Miki’s young life was a blur of travel, celebrities and private schooling. In a way, I admired her, because so many musicians plug away at the music business even after it has become intolerable and the results can be tragic. Fingers Crossed is her candid, often brutally hilarious memoir of the mid-level rock hustle in the shoegaze and Britpop scenes.Berenyi’s unconventional childhood is covered in unsparing detail, putting some of the later rock’n’roll behaviour in some context.